Just thinking:  Emotionally healthy people 
have learned to be emotional. 

This is profound. 

Suppressing emotions to avoid the pain of reliving memories, simply delays experiencing the emotions. 

To release the burden of un-forgiveness and bitterness we must embrace the emotions of the pain.   

Walking around with unprocessed feelings builds a wall between:
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  • us and others,
  • us and God,
  • us and us. 

Us and us!  Forgiving ourselves seems to be the last step to freedom from our past.  It doesn't have to be delayed.

Emotionally healthy people do not shove their emotions onto others, toxic friendship style, nor do they tamp them down into dark recesses of their gut or heart.   Some gain their healing, but along the path of emotionally healthy living, they still let their emotions spill over, without giving God glory for the healing that sharing brings.  Gratefulness, for surviving, for overcoming, for comprehending God was there all along - rescuing, protecting, guiding, covering.

I do not share my story with others to gain focus on myself while the readers look through a lens of pity or concern.  Please view with the lens of hope as I attempt to reveal God's amazing grace, unmerited favor, and peace beyond understanding, by telling my story.
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My pain is shared to bring freedom to those who emotionally are not handling their hurts or memories well. 
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All to the glory of God,
who shared His Son,
crossing a line
none of us are willing to cross. 
Unto Death

​judy 2020
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A Story Worth Telling
Often Starts With Pain.

Yes, that pain you never mention,

... or really don't want to talk about. 

Just because you thought you forgave ... and of course, 
left it in your past,
the pain may still remain. Surprise!!

Who knew.
That thing you covered well,
with grace, and prayer, tucked away;
it is secretly still hurting,
crushing, destroying deep down. 

This is why I remain in recovery.
Triggered by little things,
the memories return:

It could be:
the scent of a man's cologne;
a loud gruff public speaker;
a mother harshly correcting her child;
a highly opinionated strong personality; 
or, a random confrontational heated discussion across the room. 

Any or all of these can be emotionally challenging to an individual
who is in recovery
from physical or emotional abuse. 

I'm convinced I would not know
​if I am healed
​if I did not re-experience
some of these triggers
in my lifetime.
Forgiven and Forgiving

Judy 2019